I still ask myself this question every day, but one thing I am certain of is my love for God. I still have bad thoughts and can sometimes make bad decisions in my life, but I believe in myself and in my Lord. I do not commit unworthy acts, knowing that I can ask God for forgiveness the next day. Motherhood is one of the most amazing feelings in the world. Seeing your babies look at you with so much love is one of the most amazing feelings a person can experience. I know I wouldn't have my children without God. I believe in my heart that God put me on this Earth to be the mother of my children and to guide them to his word. With the love of God and my children, I became a courageous woman who completely turned her life around from addict to super mom. Didn't I order it from you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. (Joshua,